I am making a masterlist of all my fics posted here.
By type and pairing.
Includes ratings, etc.
Oldest first.
The titles are the links.

( can't take the kid from the fight )

Title: This Has Your Name Written All Over It.
Author: druscilla_way
Rating: PG-13.
Pairings: Alex Greenwald/Ryan; Ryan/Brendon.
Type: Oneshot.
Word count: 3897.
Recommended Listening: "Cute With the 'E'" - Taking Back Sunday.
Summary: And it's Ryan's own fault. He traded Brendon for Alex and Freedom. Oddly enough, after the first week in, Freedom felt more like a prison.

( and all of this was all your fault )

I have a masterlist.
But this is a list of my favorite pieces (of mine), pieces that I would recommend.
And maybe I'll include reasons on some of them.

( if you weren't real, i would make you up )

Title: You See Me Through Kaleidoscope Eyes (But Do You Know What I'm Seeing)?
Rating: PG-13.
Type: Oneshot.
Word Count: 934.
Pairing: Implied Ryden.
Characters: Ryden-centric.
Summary: I’m just trying not to fall apart. It’s not an easy thing to accomplish when everyone thinks you have it together. I want to cry and I can’t make tears come. I want to scream and my voice gets stuck in my throat. So I just smile and laugh and it’s force and horrible and I look at the pictures of myself from parties and nights out and I can’t hardly recognize myself.

( words aren't words; they're air )

Title: Coming Up the Stairs to Our Room.
Rating: NC-17.
Pairing: Ryden.
Type: Oneshot.
Word Count: 869.
Genre: Drama, romance.
Summary: Voices calling from a yellow road to come downstairs and say hello.

( Don't be shy, just say hello. )

Title: Drink of the River.
Rating: PG-13.
Pairing: Ryden, Ryan-centric.
Genre: Angst.
Type: Oneshot.
Word Count: 1107.
Summary: The gods respected the River Styx and swore binding oaths by it. Gods that did not follow through on such an oath had to drink from the river, causing them to lose their voices for one year, then being exiled from the council of gods for nine years after that.

( there's a poison drop in this cup of Man )

Title: Black Permanent Marker.
Rating: NC-17.
Pairing: Ryan/Alex Gaskarth.
Genre: PWP.
Word Count: 747.
Summary: Plot? What Plot?

( hips sway & lips like like clockwork )

This story and the next few to be posted are older, but I never got around to posting them here. They aren't newer than "At Night".

Title: We're Just Two Boys (and There's Nothing Boring About the Ordinary).
Type: Drabble.
Pairing: Ryden.
Genre: Romance.
Rating: PG-13.

( just a day, just an ordinary day )

This is the first story I wrote since the Panic split.

Title: At Night.
Fandom: Panic crossover with The Like/Phantom Planet.
Characters: Ryan, Brendon, Alex Greenwald, Z Berg.
Pairings: Z/Alex, Ryan/Alex, past!Brendon/Ryan.
Rating: R.
Genre: Drama.
Type: Oneshot, completed.
Word Count: 2591.
Warning: Rape.

Summary:For five years it was always Brendon&Ryan. Fights and making up. Kissing and fucking and being in love. Everything needed for a successful relationship. Then time happened and things changed and now Ryan is sleeping in Alex's guestroom. He ignores the churning feeling in the pit of his stomach, but it won't ignore him.

Maybe that's why he let it happen. Maybe part of him felt he deserved it. Maybe. Maybe . . .



( i never meant to start a war )

Title: When No One Was Looking, The World Heard Everything.
Author: druscilla_way
Rating: NC-17.
Fandom: PATD with Pete appearances.
Pairing: Ryden and a side pairing.
Genres: Drama, past.
Type: Oneshot.
Word Count: 4525.
Summary: Ryan can't sleep and Brendon is the only thing that helps. Ryan can't turn off his brain and Brendon is the only one who knows what to do.

The pattern is simple. The pattern is understood. And that is enough.

Until it isn't anymore.

( There are only patterns, patterns on top of patterns, patterns that affect other patterns. Patterns hidden by patterns. Patterns within patterns . . . What we call chaos is just patterns we haven’t recognized. What we call random is just patterns we can’t decipher. )

Title: Realization Without Absolution (or the world backwards and sideways).
Pairing: Ryden.
Characters: Ryan and Brendon.
Rating: NC-17.
Type: Oneshot.
Summary: It opens with a statement. It begins with a slap. Somewhere in the middle there are tears. Toward the final paragraph there is a statement. But there is no ending. Because no story ever really ends.
SPOILER WARNING: There are some spoilers for the book "The Boy in the Striped Pajamas" and therefore probably the movie as well. Just to warn.

( I can't explain a thing. I want everything. To change and stay the same. )

Title: The Back of a Gillikin Farmer's Truck.
Author: druscilla_way
Rating: PG-13.
Disclaimer: I don’t own them. But I own the words. I also don’t own any Gillikin farmers.
Fandom: Panic! at the Disco.
Pairing: Ryden.
Characters: Ryan, Brendon, and a fly.
Type: Oneshot, complete.
Genres: Slash, romance, weird. Yes, weird is a genre.
Word Count: 1299.

( hey now, hey now. don't dream, it's over. )

Title: Voicemail.
Author: druscilla_way
Fandom: Panic! at the Disco.
Rating: PG-13.
Pairing: Ryden.
POV: Third person.
Disclaimer: Own the words, not the people.
Genres: Drama, angst, romance.
Type: Oneshot.
Word Count: 923.
Summary: The aftermath of a fight. They're both anchored down by their phones, both anchored down by their stubbornness, both anchored down by their broken hearts.

( at the tone please record your message. When you are finished recording you may hang up or press pound for more options. )

505 word drabble.
Ryan and Brendon, not Ryden.

Title: Spring to Winter.
Author: Me.
Rating: PG-13.
Summary: Seasons inevitably change and winter gives way to spring.
We cannot go back in time, we can only move forward on this path and watch crocuses blooming under the snow.

( Tempora mutantur nos et mutamur in illis )

Title: I Can Feel Your Love.
Author: druscilla_way
Rating: NC-17.
Fandom: Panic! at the Disco.
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan.
Warnings: BDSM. Bondage, ball gag, pain, spanking, toys, mention of an enema, etc.
Type: Oneshot.
Word Count: 1851.
Disclaimer: I only own the words. If this situation ever happened, please send me the videotape.

( (and it burns) )

Title: S/he.
Author: druscilla_way
Rating: PG-13.
Fandom: Panic.
Pairing: Ryden.
Type: Oneshot/standalone.
Word count: 4634.
Point of view: Second person narration.
Disclaimer: I own the words, not the people. I own s/he.
Summary: Ryan has an imaginary friend, or imaginary enemy rather. She (or her) sinks sharp fingers into his skin and pierces into his thoughts.

( he’s going to realize that the knife was meant for your heart and the bruises are never going away and he’s going to leave. )

Title: The End of Days.
Author: Me.
Rating: R.
Fandom: Panic.
Characters: Ryan Ross.
Word Count: 717.
Warning: Rape.
Summary: Ryan is drugged and raped at a party.

( his mind held onto that image of the horsemen riding in on the Apocalypse. )

Title: Moving Portraits of Two Boys.
Rating: PG-13.
Pairing: Ryden.
Genres: Drama, romance.
Summary: Different moments in the lives of two boys, trying to deal while trying to figure it all out.

( the years all behind me, the stories exhaled )

Title: Objective Promiscuity
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: Ryan/Brendon, Ryan/Gabe, Ryan/Pete, Ryan/William, Ryan/Patrick, Ryan/OMC (multiple), Pete/Patrick, William/Gabe, Jon/Brendon.
Genres: Drama.
Summary: Ryan needs it. Brendon is waiting for him to settle down.

( are you ready to settle down? )

I hope this isn't a double post, but oh well if it is.

Title: After Supper.
Author: druscilla_way
Rating: R.
Pairing: Gabe/Ryan; Ryan/William; minor Gabe/Pete.
POV: Third person.
Disclamer: I don't own anyone, it's fiction, it never happened, I own the words.
Summary: Ryan was Gabe now. And William was Ryan. Gabe took care of Ryan. And now Ryan was taking care of William. And that was how it was going to be. Until a promise broke or one of them died. That’s how it was. Forever. As long as forever lasted. Which sometimes isn’t long at all. Gabe and Ryan’s forever had been a little over a year. Now it was William and Ryan’s forever.
Warnings: Deathfic.
Word Count: 4500 words. Oneshot.

( in the shape of things to come, too much poison come undone )